Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Fwd: BASIT YASAYACAKSIN



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From: Ozlem Ozdener <ozlemozdener@gmail.com>
Date: Sep 13, 2006 11:16 AM
Subject: BASIT YASAYACAKSIN
To: Ozlem Ozdener <bakingfairy@gmail.com>

BASIT YASAYACAKSIN

 

 

Basit Yasayacaksin

BASIT

Mesela susayinca su icecek kadar basit…

Dort cikacak, ikiyle ikiyi carptiginda.

Tek dugmesi olacak elindeki cihazin;

Tek bir dugme, tek bir cumle gibi…

Sevince lafi dolandirmadan soyledigin"seni seviyorum" gibi

Basit bir opucuk yetecek sana…

Basit sicak bir opucuk, ve o opucukle dolacak tum gunlerin,

Tum dusuncelerin.

O opucuk icin yapacaksin hayatinin kavgasini,

Opucuk icin yiyeceksin hayatinin dayagini.

Kabak cekirdegi verecek sana rakamlarin veremedigi mutlulugu.

El yazisiyla yazilmis egri bugru bir mektup olacak en degerli kagidin-hep

Yaninda tasidigin, atmaya kiyamadigin

Iki harekette giyiniverecek, iki harekette soyunuvereceksin.

Kisacik olacak uyanman, ve yola cikman arasinda gecen sure;

Kisacik olacak sicacik kollara dolanman ve kendini bile anlatabileceksin yazdiklarini; bakislarin bile anlatabilecek kendini.

Beklentilerin de basit olacak;

Kaf Dagin'nin onunde bekleyecek mutluluklar.

Bir islikta bulabileceksin en uzun dostluk romanini;

Ya da bir damla gozyasi yasatacak en ucuz romanini

Pankreasinin sagligina dua edeceksin kapatirken gozlerini

Zafer isareti yapacaksin tuvaletten cikarken.

Bir kasarli tost olacak aradigin nasil oturacagini bilemedigin sofrada,

Parmaklarin en kiymetli catalin.

Yine, ayni parmaklar cozecek en karisik denklemleri.

Iskender'in kilici duracak avukat rehberinin yaninda

Bir filarmoni orkestrasi veremeyecek sana kontrplak bir gitarda dogru basilmis bir fa diyezinin mutlulugununu

Makyaji ilk "a" sina kadar bilmen yetecek

Temizlik kokacak en pahali parfumun

"Bilmiyorum" diyebileceksin bilmediginde ve cok normal olacak"bilemeyisin"

Tek dereden su getirmen yetecek, bir "istemiyorum" diyebilmeye,

Ne durdugunun farketmeyecek abanin altinda.

Saatin, sadece saati gosterecek,

Telefonunu sadece telefon etmek icin kullanacaksin,

Kucuk bir not defteri olacak "bilgini" en hizli "sayan"

Basit yasayacaksin basit

Sanki yasamin bir gun sona erecekmis gibi basit……

                                                                                                Nazim Hikmet

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind!

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

Mark Twain

"Winning is a state of mind"
It has to start somewhere
It has to start sometime
What better place then here?
What better time then now?
 
Mark Twain

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things
that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the
bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in
your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
 

Monday, June 05, 2006

Flickr

This is a test post from flickr, a fancy photo sharing thing.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Cruel...

Calexico...10,000th times with tears...hello drama!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

a hug

all I want is a hug....sigh.....

Friday, April 21, 2006

nice!

Thomas Jefferson - "In matters of style, swim with the current; in matters of principle, stand like a rock."
 
 

Fenced


Fenced
Originally uploaded by aqui-ali.
Can you hear me?

Thursday, April 20, 2006

JOY

joy

"don't cry, it's only music,"
someone's voice is saying.
"no one you love is dying."
it's only music. and it was only spring,
the world's unreasoning body
run amok, like a saint's, with glory,
that overwhelmed a young girl
into unreasoning sadness.
"crazy," she told herself,
"i should be dancing with happiness."

but it happened again. it happens
when we make bottomless love--
there follows a bottomless sadness
which is not despair
but its nameless opposite.

it has nothing to do with the passing of time.
it's not about loss. it's about
two seemingly parallel lines
suddenly coming together
inside us, in some place
that is still wilderness.

joy, joy, the sopranos sing,
reaching for the shimmering notes
while our eyes fill with tears.
 

Just for me...

Friedrich Nietzsche - "There are no facts, only interpretations." So
true. I asked out a guy this week and he said no. My interpreation is
that he is not interested...That is a fact!

just for me...

If a man going down into a river,
swollen and swiftly flowing,
is carried away by the current --
how can he help others across?

Sutta Nipata II, 8
 
My grandmother told me today that I should not be too picky and start thinking about a guy...I smell arranged marriage:)

Meg and Jason

http://www.rebeccamead.com/2000_11_13_art_blog.htm

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

just for me...

Mohandas Gandhi - "Peace is its own reward."

Monday, April 17, 2006

I found them!


I found them!
Originally uploaded by Baking Fairy.
my new rainboots! I've been dreaming about them since the very rainy Vipassana course and finally found them on Amazon! There is none left in the rainy city...San Francisco it is!

weekend movies

Its been a lazy weekend...
 
Friday: Weather Man...I don't like N. Cage, he is creepy. The only reason I was able to take it was Melih, Okan and Erdem and their combined wicked sense of humor.
 
Saturday: I do, I don't, Dennise Richards was the only one I know in that movie. I watched it with Ozlem. She was so sick Saturday, we spent the whole day at home. Very relaxing but the movie was so Bollywood, it made me depressed. I hate lifetime. We missed Cenk....
 
Sunday: History of Violence...Ed Harris and the Lord of the Rings guy...I hated it...Can picked the movie with such confidence and I usually follow his advice on my Netflix so didn't even bother to check twice...It was black screen...Sunday nights are already sad and depressing....However, Yuko gifted me roasted green tea, amazing!
 
I saw a horrible dream where me and my sister were kidnapped and raped. Very disturbing movie.
 
 

How many lives?


How many lives?
Originally uploaded by Baking Fairy.
life is so messy, I am just tired. I am tired of explaning myself, why don't they get it? Why is this so hard? We are so helpless and hopeless..Human race is a failure. I just can't take it anymore!

Friday, April 14, 2006

Amazing!


Pleasure Is
Originally uploaded by aqui-ali.
I love San Francisco!

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Right on!

One is the quest for worldly gain,
and quite another is the path to Nibbana.
Clearly understanding this,
let not the monk, the disciple of the Buddha,
be carried away by worldly acclaim,
but develop detachment instead.

Dhammapada 75

Beautiful in Rain


Beautiful in Rain
Originally uploaded by Baking Fairy.
Just when I think I hate the rain, I see this...very pretty!

An other quote

Quote of the Day - Bo Bennett - "Success is not in what you have, but who you are."

Shakespeare and Vipassana

William Shakespeare - "Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none."

Brooding Over

I was told that I have a "brooding" personality. I've never heard that word in English, nor in any other language. When explained, I thought, totally no, but then I started to see the signs and it was so obvious...I am pretty much brooding over everything....Hours of meditation, but still doing this...@SIGH@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
 
I found some descriptions on Answer.com. It kinda makes sense....
 
1.To sit on or hatch eggs. I am not a chicken, though I am afraid most of the time to speak up, so maybe sometime in the past I was...
2. To hover envelopingly; loom. No clue...
 
These make more sense....
 
1. To be deep in thought; meditate. Yes
 
2. To focus the attention on a subject persistently and moodily; worry: brooded over the insult for several days. Right ON!
 
3. To be depressed. I am not depressed, but definitely have my moments every now and then and all I want to do is to disappear...I usually end up under my blanket or find myself eating chocolate.

Breakfast Feast

I started eating breakfast instead of artificial South Beach bars. Growing up, I always had breakfast home. It was a morning ritual, dad never left home without eating breakfast. He had to have feta cheese, tomatoes and tea of course...Overtime, I grew out of the habit when I started commuting to college, (2 hours each way) and then breakfast became a treat that I could enjoy only on the weekends...I love eggs, feta cheese, tomatoes and lemon ricotta pancakes (only from Miss Millies and they are closed!)
 
The only time I had breakfast more than 2 days in a row was during the Vipasanna course, 10 days in a row! I am going to beat that record and today was Day 1! I had oatmeal, steel cut, with stewed prunes with cinnamon and cardamom. So tasty! It is 10 am and I am still full...
 
Here is the quick recipe, if you like to make your own...
 
1 cup of steel cut oats, 2 cups of water, just boil it for 20-30 minutes under medium heat...
 
Stewed Prunes: 6-10 prunes, 1 stick of cinnamon, 4-5 cardamom pods and 1/2 cup water. Bring all to boil and let simmer for 5 minutes. You are good to go!
 
Sera had been an inspiration to me to start this experiement.